Sleepy-Tired

Yesterday was kind of a tough day for me. My ears still hurt, even after being on antibiotics for 4 days. My BIL left yesterday, so I really had a lot that I had to get done that didn't get done while he was here. You know, like laundry and vacuuming. I don't know what it was though, maybe a combination of not being able to eat great because of this ear thing (it hurts worse when I eat) and staying up late all weekend, but after putting Fritter down for his morning nap, I fell asleep as well. We both slept until about 12:30! And then I was groggy for the rest of the day.

Now, I don't know about you, but I am very sensitive to sleep issues. Too much and I'm groggy and grumpy, and too little and I'm loopy and grumpy. I also become very sensitive emotionally. So yesterday I was fairly grumpy when DH came home from work. I think being a husband/father is a fast track way to sainthood, at least for my DH. He really becomes patient with me (for the most part) when I am like this. When we had leftovers for dinner, he didn't grumble, and he even sat at the table and ate it like it was fresh-out-of-the-oven.

After Fritter went to bed, we popped in a movie, Beyond the Gates. I was sure I would fall asleep quickly, but the movie really drew me in. Not the best movie when you're feeling emotional. Let's just say my eyes were covered for about a quarter of the movie and I cried several times. DH patiently would tell me when the bad parts were over, and in one such scene, a mother and her newborn baby are trying to make a run for it (if you know the story, they were Tutsi) and were overcome by Hutu. I plugged my ears and covered my eyes for the whole scene, and afterwards I asked DH if they got the baby, and he said, "Never mind, it doesn't matter" and left it at that.

I have to say, since my miscarriage, I have been very sensitive to anything with children. Maybe that's normal, I don't know. But I used to be able to move on quickly in movies, but lately I'm apt to just walk away from the movie and not even finish it. I did this with Zodiac. The part where the lady with the baby and they get in his car. I was done. I left and didn't ever finish it. DH did, and told me they got away. I hope that's true. I seems the most evil thing in the world to hurt a child. And I'm not sure if any of you have noticed, but the number of movies lately that have either an evil little kid or kids being hurt in it, seem to have increased. Or maybe I'm just noticing them more now.

Anyway, sorry this was such a whiny post. Today is going to be a better day. I have a full agenda and I am blessed with a wonderful husband and a sweet baby boy. God is good.