Things lately have been...hard. Besides the obvious stuff (lack of sleep, learning how to manage three children instead of two, ect.) little Sunflower is very fussy, or colicky, or whatever. So we're learning how to deal with that. Plus she isn't nursing as well as I'd like. Oh, she's gaining weight just fine (we took her in for a diaper rash that just won't go away and when they weighed her she was just at 11 lbs!) but she's a fussy nurser. I have a very active let down reflex and though I've tried several things, it doesn't change the fact that she can't quite keep up. So we both end up covered in milk and at least one of us (though sometimes both) are also covered in tears. It's frustrating for both of us. I know this will get better, I dealt with it with Ladybug as well, but it still stinks.
Thankfully, potty training Ladybug has been a breeze. It's basically been a non issue, and I can safely say she is pretty much trained. We are still using plastic pants at night, but she's waking up dry so we probably don't even need to do that. As easy as it's been, it's still another log in the fire.
And housework? Ha! Not much of that happening here. Remember that picture I posted about my laundry? It hasn't changed. Those clothes got put away just to have more replace them. It's all I can do to keep up.
Also, dh has been dealing with some pretty high stress at work as well. We are both trying to help each other as much as we can and carry each others burdens, but they are getting heavy and there seems to be no rest in sight.
Most of the time, I have a decent attitude about things. "That's life" has pretty much become my motto. And it's true. And there are many times that I can laugh at the busyness of it all. But there are moments when I just...feel inadequate. Which I am, I suppose.
"I am the vine, you are the branches. If you remain in me and I in you, you will bear much fruit; apart from me you can do nothing." -John 15:5
Something I need to keep in mind.
It's hard for me to remember, but I know I just need to count all my wonderful blessings. There are so many of them! And then pick myself up by my apron strings and keep moving forward, one foot in front of the other, preferably with a smile on my face.
"Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble of heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light." - Matthew 11:28-31